Anyone ever have these moments where something so ordinary becomes incredibly difficult for some reason? It is so frustrating. This happened to me the other day. I really wanted to go to class but for some reason—and it's hard to explain—I just couldn't. It was just not possible at the time. It was like there was someone (or something) inside me yelling frantically, "NO! DON'T DO IT!"
Weird, right? What's so scary about going inside a classroom? In fact, I actually really love that class. It is one of my favorite classes! My professor is great, my classmates are great, etc. So what was my deal?
If you've ever had anxiety before... you know. Having it creep up on me for the strangest reasons is just something I have to live with. I've been dealing with very bad anxiety (or worse than my usual) for a few months now and I cannot imagine having to deal with this for much longer. I seriously sympathize with those who have been dealing with major anxiety for much longer than I have.
I just don't understand how something intangible— a feeling— can physically hold me back from doing something. I mean, I guess I can understand it, seeing as how I've experienced it (and continue to experience it) firsthand. It's just hard to wrap my head around.
Anyway, this is what I've been dealing with on a daily basis as of late. :( Much sadness.
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